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They are about to be milk making machines I can totally tell already
.On Thursday I went to the emergency room.. and .. sunday was the first time we spoke since he got me the prenatal .. Nick then informed me that he felt that not only didn’t have to be in the delivery room he didn’t have to do any “pregnancy stuff” either. He yelled played the victim and told a bunch me a other things that he didn’t feel like doing among other horrible things .. he said because I told him to fuck off he shouldnt have to do anything .. the entire 4 hour argument he not once asked anything about her..not size movements..not even to see an ultrasound ..NOTHING ..Nick is a 32 years old.. you can only ran with the whole being “terrified” thing for so long. He has actively admitted to putting this “thing” out of his mind because he doesn’t feel like dealing with it…
I’ve tried multiple approaches .. He is showing that he is incapable of prioritizing and incapable of handling a child.
I’m tried of being looked at as the bad guy here because he refuses to get his shit together.I have do what’s best for everyone here .. I am scared and hormonal,but I know that this baby comes first. Nick is only concerned with Nick .. Everyone who was in my apartment yesterday who heard him being insanely combative wants to kill him
I’m tired of bending over backwards and trying to accommodate nick because he doesn’t know how to deal with the real world. I’m stressing myself out trying to find a halfway point.
He doesn’t deserve to be anywhere near my daughter
I understand how girls need their fathers in their lives. My dad and I had some issues for a while and I never want my kid to ever have to have problems with her dad ..
It’s just that he is becoming sort of toxic.. if I’m telling you that I’ve just been in the hospital because I’m having shooting chest pains you don’t come over the very next day and starting and huge argument you know ..
He yelled and said horrible things to me from the moment he sat down in my place ..I gave him just a taste of what was on my mind for a few minutes and he broke down and cried…
Fucking cried .. saying that I was absolutely right and I was indeed the only person who knew him..andhe said that he was scared .. I felt bad. But honestly not very..he needs to take a moment and realize that what his actions are not ok..
a day later he was right back at it..go figure.. This is why I wanted not to tell him..
I don’t want to deal with him..
Not now …not ever
Yesterday I found out of my little squid is the size of an avocado and cried because I was so excited and also because the co-creator of said baby was nowhere to be found..
I also was kind of down because it was pazcski day in Hamtramck (which is basically like St Patrick’s Day for Polish people) and not only was it horrendously cold… but I didn’t wanna go anywhere because I didn’t really want to be around people drinking booze all night ..
Also I didn’t want to risk possibly running into the co-creator of my child (and having a rage fit because he missed a pretty important doctors appointment during the day but could make it out drinking that night.)
Kb came over for like 30 minutes gave me a little pep talk and then left I was beat ..physically and emotionally, so I took a bath and went to sleep.
He came over again tonight .. massaged my belly and gave me some awesome lovin :*)
He looks so emotionally drained I feel really bad. His birthday is tomorrow.. He’s working through the weekend..
I don’t like it…. I hate this
I hate that I feel like I’m getting separation anxiety every time he says he has to go home..
I don’t know if this is my hormones or just me actually starting to kick in but I’m really starting to get attached..