May 16th, 2014

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There are those of us that drink to forget!
Kudos to those among us that are lucky enough to forget
April 11th, 2014

A lot of photos ..A lot of ups and downs over the past 10 months

The last three are my favorites !

As a matter of fact the second pic from the bottom with Kenny is the best! ..That was the night I had attended my best friend’s brother’s horribly themed but very touching wedding(which is why I’m in a gown). It was also my buddy Seth’s birthday party/James Linck’s video shoot (which I had planned not to go to, because I was extremely depressed and super sick [unknowingly pregnant].

I had actually planned to reopen the wounds on my arm and down about 5 Valium. A mutual friend of Seth and I actually came over and demanded that I “go with him to the bar party so he could court some guy he saw on the facebook page!”(ahh friend priorities)

Kenny-(who I first met innocently enough back in September via maria) and I had only had a few conversations on the night we met about random thing.. I told him I was studying broadcasting and wanted to work behind a camera one day ,He told me He was a camera guy a  show and had done some other industry stuff .. we talked a little.. more to friends mostly.. I gave him my email address..he gave me his card..That was that.. I told him he looked like an “Estevez”..He told me I had a cute smile didn’t expect to see him really..

{Well actually before that he spilled some dill dip on the stomach of his hoodie (and the mom in me immediately kicked in)I grabbed a wet napkin and dabbed some of it up and said “all this wasted sauce” which he replied teasingly with “don’t let it all waste then ,mom” and I then(Because I’m awesomely me) took my finger and scooped up a  tiny bit into my mouth and said mockingly “See,its not all wasted ..dad” He then smiled and got really close and said “Do you know what you just did ,don’t you ?”  “no”.. “i dare you to do it again” he said.. I put finger on the stain and  he made his penis twitch— haha .I got completely high pitched in between giggles and said “Whoa, why would you point that out to me”{ he just laughed}] It was weird..cute.})..never thought or never really gave thought to seeing him again..] -walked up to me that night on the 20th, and grinning like a cat and spilling his beer on my open toes shoes while tripping over himself to say hello.. it was adorable

I was honestly surprised and caught off guard

he was smashed ..but he looked like he needed it we talked

did i mention he was smashed ?.

we lip synced some lyrics for the video shoot.. i saw he was inching for his keys and I got a sudden urge to tell him not to go(well not so sudden..he was drunk) I told him my couch was open and after loading up the rest of my drunk friends we went to my casa! I got him the couch sleeping essentials(pillow ,water,comfy blanket)He grabbed my hand and kissed it and thanked me for being sweet

I was ready to thwart off some drunken advances

i laughed and told him ” Please don’t choke on your vomit in your sleep, I d be sad if you you died on my couch but, I wouldn’t call the police.would seriously i’d just get rid of your body.. “

He accused me of needing a good cuddle and pulled me down to him and told me i’d be free to stop once, he choked on said vomit or the sun came up..”you know whichever one comes first”.

I spooned there, listening to him talk .. then him breath.

no funny stuff..super cheesy I know but i loved it ;)..

 lol…not sure if it’ll work but, for now I’m excited for all the in-between.

April 3rd, 2014
My baby girl a big one!
…we don’t need her co-creator ..(she’ll always have me)he’s the worst!

My baby girl a big one!

…we don’t need her co-creator ..(she’ll always have me)he’s the worst!

(Source: namalam, via hopeesmie)

My experience of life is that it is not divided up into genres; it’s a horrifying, romantic, tragic, comical, science-fiction cowboy detective novel. You know, with a bit of pornography if you’re lucky.
Alan Moore (via observando)

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March 30th, 2014
There’s stuff coming from my boobs..
They are about to be milk making machines I can totally tell already
March 23rd, 2014
helloletsdate:

Discussing our favorite actors.

helloletsdate:

Discussing our favorite actors.

helloletsdate:

Alternative gun uses.

helloletsdate:

Alternative gun uses.

March 22nd, 2014
wilwheaton:

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAaaaaa
*deep breath*
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
*pant*
*pant*
No, but seriously, Creationists, Cosmos is about science, so your bullshit can go somewhere else where fairy tales are taught.

wilwheaton:

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAaaaaa

*deep breath*

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

*pant*

*pant*

No, but seriously, Creationists, Cosmos is about science, so your bullshit can go somewhere else where fairy tales are taught.

(Source: talkingpointsmemo.com, via psychophancy)

n-irvana:

Kurt Cobain and Frances Bean, 1993


There is a papa that loved his little baby

n-irvana:

Kurt Cobain and Frances Bean, 1993

There is a papa that loved his little baby

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March 15th, 2014

.On Thursday I went to the emergency room..  and .. sunday was the first time we spoke since he got me the prenatal .. Nick then informed me that he felt that not only didn’t have to be in the delivery room he didn’t have to do any “pregnancy stuff” either. He yelled played the victim and told a bunch me a other things that he didn’t feel like doing among other horrible things .. he said because I told him to fuck off he shouldnt have to do anything ..  the entire 4 hour argument he not once asked  anything about her..not size movements..not even to see an ultrasound ..NOTHING ..Nick is a 32 years old.. you can only ran with the whole being “terrified” thing for so long.  He has actively admitted to putting this “thing” out of his mind because he doesn’t feel like dealing with it…

I’ve tried multiple approaches .. He is showing that he is incapable of prioritizing and incapable of handling a child.

I’m tried of being looked at as the bad guy here because he refuses to get his shit together.I have do what’s best for everyone here .. I am scared and hormonal,but I know that this baby comes first. Nick is only concerned with Nick .. Everyone who was in my apartment yesterday who heard him being insanely combative   wants to kill him
I’m tired of bending over backwards and trying to accommodate nick because he doesn’t know how to deal with the real world. I’m stressing myself out trying to find a halfway point.
He doesn’t deserve to be anywhere near my daughter

I understand how girls need their fathers in their lives.  My dad and I had some issues for a while and I never want my kid to ever have to have problems with her dad ..

It’s just that he is becoming sort of toxic.. if I’m telling you that I’ve just been in the hospital because I’m having shooting chest pains you don’t come over the very next day and starting and huge argument you know ..

He yelled and said horrible things to me from the moment he sat down in my place ..I gave him just a taste of what was on my mind for a few minutes and he broke down and cried…
Fucking cried .. saying that I was absolutely right and I was indeed the only person who knew him..andhe said that he was scared .. I felt bad. But honestly not very..he needs to take a moment and realize that what his actions are not ok..

a day later he was right back at it..go figure.. This is why I wanted not to tell him..

I don’t want to deal with him..
Not now …not ever

March 6th, 2014

Yesterday I found out of my little squid is the size of an avocado and cried because I was so excited and also because the co-creator of said baby was nowhere to be found..

I also was kind of down because it was pazcski day in Hamtramck (which is basically like St Patrick’s Day for Polish people) and not only was it horrendously cold… but I didn’t wanna go anywhere because I didn’t really want to be around people drinking booze all night ..
Also I didn’t want to risk possibly running into the co-creator of my child (and having a rage fit because he missed a pretty important doctors appointment during the day but could make it out drinking that night.)

Kb came over for like 30 minutes gave me a little pep talk and then left I was beat ..physically and emotionally, so I took a bath and went to sleep.

He came over again tonight .. massaged my belly and gave me some awesome lovin :*)

He looks so emotionally drained  I feel really bad. His birthday is tomorrow.. He’s working through the weekend..
I don’t like it…. I hate this
I hate that I feel like I’m getting separation anxiety every time he says he has to go home..

I don’t know if this is my hormones or just me actually starting to kick in but I’m really starting to get attached..